The Nightmare Begins Tomorrow

It's almost that time. October 1 is the release of my new horror and lesbian paranormal romance series, Hell's Bells. Chapters of the first book, Evil Walks, will be released weekly, so every Thursday check back here for a new installment!

The nightmare begins tomorrow.

The Two of Swords from the Rider-Waite-Smith Tarot.

XOXO
Gossip Ghoul

Song of the Week: Love Me Like You Do

"Love Me Like You Do" by Ellie Goulding is my new favorite song. I've been listening to it on repeat lately. Once in a while, I find a song that just fills me with happiness, and this is one of those. I love the entire soundtrack to the Fifty Shades of Grey movie. I love the book and the movie too, but the soundtrack is particularly awesome. It's a great mix of songs with romantic stuff, Danny Elfman instrumentals, classic rock Rolling Stones, Frank Sinatra, and more, but "Love Me Like You Do" is my favorite song on there. Here's the official music video for it.




This song especially means a lot to me because it's been inspiring my writing. The love songs that I've really focused on lately I've been associating with the main romance on my current book, Hell's Bells. Usually I find a song that relates to how one girl feels or the how the other girl feels (yes, it's a lesbian romance), but there are only a few songs that accommodate both girls' perspectives. "Love Me Like You Do" is one of those, which means it's doubly inspiring to me, and right now I can use all the inspiration I can get.

What did you think of the song? Have you listened to the Fifty Shades soundtrack? What loves songs inspire you? Let me know in the comments, or tweet me @ak_gossipghoul.

XOXO
Gossip Ghoul

Blank Space

I'm staring at a blank page of my little pink notebook, with my pink pen poised to record a masterpiece, but my mind is as blank as the paper. How poetic. Not. >_<

Gif from Tumblr.

Technically, this paper isn't all blank because it's lined. That makes all the difference, right? It's ready to be written on, just like my mind is ready to start writing. All I need is something to write about, something to inspire me, something to help me ignore the crushing weight of depression that keeps bringing me lower and lower and lower...

Michelle Phan's new book came out a few months ago. It's awesome and helpful, and I love it. Part of me feels so inspired. After all, Michelle Phan is the reason I started writing a blog in the first place, as well as the reason I started wearing makeup in the first place. She's gotten so much success doing what she loves, and part of me feels like if she can accomplish all that, then I should be able to do what I love.

The other part of me wonders that if Michelle Phan and John Green and Melissa Marr and Richelle Mead and Neil Gaiman and Lily Schwartz and all the other people out there (mostly writers) that I love and admire can find succeess, then there's no room for me. They've already accomplished everything first and done it better than I could. And with all these other, better people out there, how could anyone even notice me?

Probably cuz all I do is bitch and moan and  go on hiatus and then complain about my depression, the nasty part of me comments.

Yes, well, everything I ever do to try to escape depression inevitably backfires. Remember the last few months? Remember all of October? I reply to myself, ignoring how crazy a discussion this is.

Furthermore, it's become increasingly clear to me lately that I need a better source of income, but there is nothing I would rather do than write.

Yet if that's the case, then why can't I?

Oh look, I say to myself sarcastically. I've filled up the blank-except-for-blue-lines page, along with a few more pages in this little notebook, with meaningless scribbles no-one will ever bother to read.

Ah, yes, I reply with a little shrug, but at least I've written something, which is more than I can say for the scene in my book that I've been stuck on. Meaningless rambles are always better than a blank space.

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XOXO

Gossip Ghoul